Life has a funny way of challenging people. Sometimes instead of throwing one thing at them, it smacks them across the face and hits them in the gut with a shit-ton of things that they need to deal with all at once. On top of the daily tasks that people do everyday. How much can they take? How can these things be dealt with? Can they? I guess the answer is that they do. They deal in the best way that they can. It’s really hard to say whether it’s right or not. But that’s just how things are.
This past week, I’ve had a dumping of bad news. It’s super stressful and I have no idea what to do with all this news. There’s really not much that I can do but just be there for the people that the have to actually deal with the things that are going on. I don’t want to get into details, but it’s really hard to know that bad things are happening to your loved ones and you can’t do anything to get rid of their pain. The only consolation is knowing that you can be there for them to listen to their feelings and perhaps, do things to help them with the day-to-day functions of life. Ugh. I’m rambling and probably not making too much sense, but all these thoughts are banging around in my head and I need to get them out.
That’s another problem. How does one be strong for others without breaking down themselves? You want to be strong and solid for them, but then who is there for you? I don’t want to burden anyone with these feelings but I know better than to try to keep things bottled up. It never ends well. I guess one thing that I can be thankful for is my passion for writing and the need to express myself with the written word. Even if I don’t speak things out loud, I can always get them out of my head.
I’m trying to take it all one step and one day at a time. Tick Tock. Tick Tock.
You can be strong and solid and still still break down. That is the beauty of being a human! You are loved more than you know, so if you need to have a wee bit of breakdown you have enough people rooting for you that their will be no problem picking yourself up!Cry— it's like taking your soul through the laundry, washing away all the dirt and grime :)Love you!