Cracked

Stomach is growling but I can’t eat.

Body is tired but I can’t sleep.

Eyes are weary but they won’t close.

Head is aching but it’s cant seem to doze.

This night is long and feels never ending.

I say I’m okay but there is no use pretending.

My heart is sad and feels like its breaking.

The feeling inside of it seems to

Always be aching.

How do you watch a loved one die?

My only answer is but a sigh.

My head says it’s only a matter of time.

His body has suffered too long to be fine.

My heart however does not want to face this fact.

It wants to be selfish so it doesn’t have to live…

Cracked.

I wrote this on 3 April, 2012. The night before my Nonno passed away. It’s been nine years today since his passing. Seemed fitting to share it today.