Today official begins a new month and I am so grateful for that. Last month, for me, was a hard one. I just didn’t feel like myself. I’m still feeling a bit like that but I am trying to stay on the positive side of things. It’s hard though, always keeping a smile on your face when you don’t feel that way on the inside. It’s tiring too. I don’t talk much to anyone when I feel this way. Sometimes I just need to invert and delve inside myself and figure things out on my own. Having outside voices telling me that things are okay and will be all right, or trying to offer advice just makes me more… emotional and detached.
I am trying very hard not to be detached. It’s not good for me. I have already learned that bottling up your emotions in never a good idea, so I allow myself to feel them. Detaching is just a way that I cope. I hate bothering people with feelings that I know are just passing through. Many have said that it doesn’t bother them and want me to talk things through, but for me, it just doesn’t work that way with certain feeling phases.
So it’s a new month and I am aiming for a new attitude. I’ve got some goals to start working on (more on those later!) and something to prepare for!
My troupe TriDevi Tribal and I are going to Vancouver on the 20th of this month for General Skills for belly dance! I am SO beyond excited for this! It is one of the things that I am gearing up for and looking forward to. It’ll be our first full troupe trip! What is General Skills? Well it’s a 20 hour intensive (four five hour days!) presenting all 70+ steps from the FCBD® ATS® vocabulary along with cues, formations, lead and follow, chorus, music theory for ATS® and functional anatomy for dance. It’s an intense workshop and I can’t wait! It’s one of the major things that is keeping me sane. Dance is certainly a positive aspect of my life and helps keep me grounded.
Like Dory from Finding Nemo says “Just keep swimming, just keep swimming, swimming, swimming!”