Well, once again I struggle. My heart feels like it’s breaking again. Why?
Just have these overwhelming feelings of inadequacy. I’m really having a hard time feeling good enough. Or even just enough. For the most part, I can tread above the current that pulls me down, but it’s the times like right now when I wonder if I’ll ever feel okay again.
Being in the midst of grieving doesn’t help either. I miss Nonno. So much. He was always a constant in my life and now that he’s gone I just feel so lost.
Lost in every single aspect of my life.
I get asked when I’m going to settle down and get married and have kids. Honestly, I don’t think that’s in the cards for me. I can’t explain it. It’s just a gut feeling that I have.
I’m just disoriented, lost, and so very sad. I just want to feel okay. Is that too much to ask??